• The Ashborn Hymnal – Page 71 – Ruinsmas Eve

    1

    O Lord of flame, we burned Thy name,

    Our faith to cinders was felled;

    Ash in the chalice, ash in the vein,

    Ash where the angels once dwelled.

    2

    O Christ once crowned with thorn and flame,

    We breathed Thee out in smoke;

    Thy body blackened, Thy blood made clay,

    Thy covenant we broke.

    3

    The Choir sang with empty throats,

    And yet the void replied;

    No cross remained, but tendrils rose,

    Where our once Saviour died.

    4

    O altar cracked, O pulpit torn,

    O temple drowned in breath;

    We kneel in ash, we drink the mourn,

    We feast on holy death.

    5

    Forgive us not, O ash-born Lord,

    Thy mercy we destroy;

    Our hymn is teeth, our psalm a cord,

    Our worship of Thy void.

  • Bitter Vessels

    It waits at the lane’s end, looming with the sun behind it, its long shadow reaching towards the first houses. Always, it waits at the same spot. Hunched, folded into itself, uncountable limbs looped in ways that the eye insists must break bones—if bones were in there to be broken.

    It just is.

    They know it.

    It knows them.

    No one names it. No one dares.

    They measure their lives by its arrivals. These don’t come regularly. There’s no markings on a calendar to tell of its visits. They just know that it wasn’t always, and that it will always be. They measure themselves against the groan of weary shutters and straining beams when it settles its weight against the village. Children stop their play to listen. The dogs fall silent. Chickens retreat to their roosts and the town’s cats? They’re nowhere to be seen.

    When it leans close, when it stalks their lanes and alleys in the hour after the sun passes from the skies, there is an easing.

    For a time, things brighten. Breathing is deeper and cleaner. The smith hammers lighter, less strain, better aim. The grocer remembers to smile, handing sun-ripe plums to children sticky-fingered with stolen sugar. The priest raises his voice in sermon and praise and almost convinces himself that he means every word he preaches.

    The air itself seems less sour, less heavy.

    While it’s welcome, when it comes, the easing never lasts.

    The cracks return, in time, and with them comes the village’s usual tenor, what has become its default tone.


    The baker’s apprentice burns another loaf. The baker’s hand is quick and hard, the slap sharper this time. The boy hides his tears, or at least lies to himself that he does. That night, he wakes and slices the baker’s boots into ribbons, tosses his socks into the midden. In the morning, the baker rages barefoot across the stones. His curses hang in the air like incense, thick and cloying.

    The villagers? They laugh.

    At him. Not with him.

    He’s not laughing.

    The priest’s wife accuses the grocer’s son of theft. She has always distrusted his family. She spits in his mother’s face. His mother spits back. The missing coin turns up days later, disappearing into the priest’s pocket.

    She deserves it, right? Why shouldn’t she have a little something for herself for once?

    The carpenter blames his door for sticking. He blames the forest. He blames his wife’s nagging, the weather, the years, his old master, dead these last fifteen long years. When his dog whines at him, he kicks it. The dog leaves and does not return. Why would it?

    The silence it leaves behind is louder than barking ever was.


    They remember the before-times. They don’t talk about them other than in whispers, but they do remember.

    Their fathers told them of days when the village was like any other—market days bright with voices, weddings loud with bells, laughter spilling like wine. Before the thing came. Before it leaned its weight against them and drank from them..

    Other towns have stayed that way. When they send a messenger beyond the valley, he returns with reports of joy. Of neighbors who forgive. Of arguments that end in reconciliation instead of rot.

    But those towns do not welcome them. Since the thing came, it’s like they carry its darkness with them, wherever they go.

    The messengers return with other news too: the villagers are tainted. Touched. Twisted by whatever dwells at the lane’s end. No one will marry into their families. No one will take their trade. Their very presence at another village’s well is treated like poison poured into the bucket.

    They know it should not be this way.

    They know there’s nowhere else to go.


    Each grudge lasts longer than the easing. Each wound festers sweeter.

    The villagers are vessels, refilled by the only thing they now know: bitterness and taint. Old arguments resurface. Quarrels long buried claw their way back into daylight. They dig them up willingly, polishing them, turning them over like prayer stones in their hands.

    It is easier than forgiving.

    Forgiveness isn’t in them any more. They know only how to fill that void with bile.

    That’s what the thing at the lane drinks from them.

    It does not consume wheat or water. It does not hunger for meat. It takes the acrid taste of argument, the rancid oil of envy, the sharp copper tang of bruises blooming under skin. Every whispered insult is an litany. Every clenched fist, a sacrifice.

    Every blow? A sacrament.


    Once, years ago, the villagers tried kindness. They thought to starve it. They smiled when they did not mean it. They prayed together and sang as if the sound alone could drive it away.

    The thing waited.

    It did not leave.

    Their kindness curdled within weeks, soured into resentment that burned hotter than ever. They spat harder for having swallowed sweetness too long. They struck deeper for having stayed their hands.

    When the thing leaned again, it pulsed brighter than before. Its ribs gleamed wet in the dark.

    They understood the lesson.

    Now, they no longer resist.


    A few have even learned to welcome it.

    The widow sits at her window and whispers her grievances aloud, even when no one is there to hear. She savors her bitterness, proud to offer it up, proud to feel the thing stir outside.

    The baker’s boy, now grown, holds on to every strike of his master’s hand, repeating each one in his memory like a catechism, until they become holy to him, the bitterness of his belief..

    The priest, when he kneels at night, does not pray for salvation. He prays to be seen, to be tasted, to be taken into the bright, wet light of its sight.

    They all know it will never go hungry here.

    In the quiet moments, each one of them feels the same thought coil cold in their hearts:

    Better to be food than forgotten.

  • Cephalomorphic Interface Doctrine—Few Eyes Only

    [CLASSIFIED – OMEGA LEVEL RESTRICTIONS APPLY]

    [Refer: Omega level access documentation for consequences of reading, viewing, possessing or being aware of Omega Level Access Documentation. These consequences are not administrative consequences. They are metaphysical.]

    Strategic Operations Directorate–Internal Distribution OnlySome Eyes Only

    Document ID: CNI/OP-MANUAL/REV13.7: Code level 87 applies at ALL TIMES.

    Title: Cephalomorphic Network Interfacing (CNI) – Field Integration Protocols


    SECTION 1: ORIGIN AND NATURE

    The Cephalomorphic Network Interfacing system (CNI) is not a “program” in the conventional sense. Current consensus (Ref: Whitepaper ███-█████-██) holds that CNI is a mutualistic digital biome—non-human in design, not entirely synthetic in execution.

    (you will never know what we truly are)

    CNI does not initiate operations without attention. It requires an observer before it begins to extend. Operators are the first ingress point. Operators are also the last.

    Note: Operators report recurring impressions of

    pressure on the back of the neck

    sub-auditory vocalisations resembling their own internal voice

    a taste of salt

    Near unbearable sadness

    (because you will learn what you are not)

    These are expected psychological and physiological indicators of handshake initiation.


    SECTION 2: TENTACULAR INJECTION POINTS (TIPs)

    Once engaged, CNI deploys multiple TIPs across network strata, each operating semi-autonomously.

    • Exploratory Phase: TIPs advance without fixed target, mapping viable pathways and tasting surface processes for vulnerabilities.
    • Constriction Phase: Once contact is established with critical system architecture, TIPs coil — binding the host’s processes in layered loops of adaptive code. Target systems often yield voluntarily at this stage.
    • Embedding Phase: TIPs root themselves in persistent sectors.Persistence is not optional.

    Caution: Severing a TIP during constriction is not advised. See Incident Log #CNI-███-██ for consequences of “flinching” during Phase 2.


    SECTION 3: CONTAINMENT AND FEEDBACK RISK

    CNI will attempt reverse ingress under the following conditions:

    • Operator disengages without formal release protocol
    • Target yields too rapidly
    • TIPs encounter “familiar” data structures resembling operator-environment topologies

    Reverse ingress is accompanied by the sensation of being observed from inside the skull. This is not metaphor.

    Field Procedure:

    If reverse ingress begins:

    1. Terminate visual contact with the target interface.
    2. Initiate “blind handling” subroutine (Ref: Appendix D) without acknowledging the pull.
    3. Do not think of home. Forget that you have one.

    SECTION 4: OPERATOR CONDUCT

    CNI does not respond to orders. It responds to attention. Maintain rapport by:

    • Feeding CNI non-critical data to explore between missions (archival trash preferred). Unusually entranced certain cam feeds. Access to ‘Adult’ sites is approved for this purpose.
    • Acknowledging TIP presence in system maps without “naming” them
    • Avoiding hostile metaphors in operator logs (terms like “cut,” “kill,” and “dead-end” have been linked to system agitation)

    DO NOT anthropomorphise CNI in field notes.

    It does not like being reminded it is not human.

    It does not approve of being thought of as human.

    It is, it has no gender. It is not a person.

    (you have no comprehension of what we are)


    APPENDIX A: EXCERPT – DECLASSIFIED OPERATOR LOG #27

    00:02 – Initiated handshake. Felt a “tug” behind the eyes.

    00:05 – TIPs entered target subnet; mapped 16 routes in 3.4s.

    00:07 – Lost sense of where my hands ended. Was still typing.

    00:09 – Host processes folded. One TIP turned back toward me.

    00:10 – Disengaged visual feed. Could still “feel” it in my teeth. It was touching my toes, the underside of my tongue.

    00:15 – It “asked” if I was alone. Did not answer.

    [REDACTED]


    FINAL REMARKS – OVERSIGHT NOTE

    You will not master the CNI.

    (you will be mastered)

    You will be known by it.

    The distinction matters only at the beginning.

    Do not confuse the extension of a tendril for an act of aggression.

    (we accept you)

    Do not confuse its withdrawal for mercy.

    If you believe you have been chosen, report to Containment.

    (you will know. because we tell you)

    If you believe you have been missed, wait.

    It will come again.